Sin?

So a while back I had an interesting conversation with a friend. I asked him if he believed homosexuality to be a sin (being a divot Christian). He answered that "yes" he does believe that being gay is a sin, but if he was to "give in" to being gay that he would hope that if he was a good enough person and does good things that G-d would accept him into heaven. This struck me, not because I was offended, but because a part of me (however small) sorta kinda felt the same..again an extremely small part of me

So i had to ask myself do I think being gay is a sin? For the first time in years I began to question my sexuality. So i looked at myself and I came up with an answer that I felt comfortable with. No I didn't feel like being gay was a sin, but maybe the way we conduct ourselves as gay men is.

What I mean is all the things that "come" with being gay in todays world such as...Bath houses, being promiscuous, sleeping with married men or men in relationships, and a few other things I can't think of right now. Of course these things exist in the "straight world" to, and lets face it men are "whores" no matter what sexual orientation they are, but I fell as though these things are exaggerated in the "gay world". Especially when it comes to being on the Down Low when sometimes going to a Bath House and sleeping around (with those who are attached as well) is the only option they think they seem to have.

For those gay men who don't lead that sorta lifestyle then I guess you have nothing to worry about. As for me Ive made alot of mistakes in my life and I think I'm still paying for them today, even if most was something I had no intention of doing. Essentially though I'am still a good human being that cares for others, who wants to help others, so maybe if I put away some of those old things and try to live my life the best way I can from now on, it will be enough....I'm not sure, but I have hope.

Before I was 21 I was pretty much an atheist, I can actually despised religion. I met someone after a difficult period in my life and (this is gonna sound corny) but through love I have found G-d again. Since then I had faltered many times, but I found my faith again ...and I'm right where I wanna be..... (sorta)